Day One and Two

Yesterday, you left. It was the hardest day in my life. This is the second time we have had to say "see you later" (good-bye is NOT in my vocabulary) because of a deployment, but this time was definitely harder. Our son is already missing his daddy so much, it is obvious. Missing you is not even a good expression for how I am feeling. But I don't want to dwell on that. I want to let you know that I am STRONG and PROUD, and those are the emotions I will be projecting onto our son. On the days where I want to sit and cry, which I know will come, he will not see that. I want this to be a happy time in his life, and it's my duty as an Army wife to take care of our family and our home.

Yesterday we came home and spent time with family. It was nice to not be alone. Then Trevan went to bed and they all left and it was just me here, and I did a lot of thinking. I am ready for this, as ready as anyone can be. And you are too. We will make it through this year stronger than ever babe, and even though there will be hard times ahead, we will make it through them.

Last night before Trevan went to bed we prayed for you. We prayed for God to watch over Daddy and the other soldiers and to always let Daddy know that we love him and are thinking of him. We will be doing this every single night.

Yesterday was hard. Today is hard. Tomorrow will be hard. But each day that passese is one day closer to the day that you will be home again. And that is what I am living for.

This blog is to keep you up to date on what we do, so if I don't get the luxury of talking to you at least everything will be recorded so you can see. I will try to update it everyday, but I doubt I will be able to do it all the time. At least it will be a few times a week.

Jason, I love you. More than the day I married you. More than I did yesterday. We are so blessed to have found each other and to have the life we have. And whenever you feel down, or weak, or sad, just know that we are with you. We can do anything through Christ who strengthens us. Please, look to God when I can't be there for you. He will always always be there.

I LOVE YOU...Trevan is waking up from his nap. All we have done today is lounge around in PJs....which is exactly what we needed to do.

YOU ARE OUR HERO!! we love you...